When the average person has a midlife crisis its typically followed by running off to do all the things they never had a chance to while they were young due to family or employment restrictions.
For me its the exact opposite. I dream of a small house with a white picket fence, a wife, dog and 2.5 children. Its also important that I have a mind numbing boring job, health insurance and a nice stock portfolio that I can truly beleave will actually be there when I retire. I’ve spent the last 25 years living on the edge, held three of the top 10 most dangerous jobs in the world and completely finished my bucket list. I’ve been to the four corners of this great big earth and seen it all and done it all. I’ve fought many a great man and loved many a great woman, I’m exhausted.
“You’re captives of a civilizational system that more or less compels you to go on destroying the world in order to live. … You are captives—and you have made a captive of the world itself. That’s what’s at stake, isn’t it?—your captivity and the captivity of the world.” ~Daniel Quinn, “Ishamel”