Every time I’m about to say no, I look into those eyes and say OK I will never understand why we need to have 5 types of tea, or dozens of herbs and spices, now were up to 5 types of cooking oil and every time I turn around some Asian this or that is falling out of our now full galley shelf’s. The truth is I may never understand why but there is more to life than understanding the how’s and why’s of everything. I don’t think I will ever be able to convince Serena why I want a $2,500.00 camera but regardless of her understanding of it, she always supports my insane drive.
Life is changing rapidly around here and while I’m hobbling around with a broken foot, it hasn’t slowed me down a bit. Its become quite clear to both of of that the likelihood of sailing beyond the Salish Sea this summer is not looking good. Rather than stress about the future I have put in on the back burner, we are enjoying the here and now. Our summer plans are filling up quickly and regardless of the fact that I am now entering month 40 of my boycott of fossil fuels I am planning a thirty day road trip in the spring to work on a few writing projects.
Our age difference puts us in quite different places in life, its not just our age difference but generational difference. Serena is just stepping out into the world to make her mark, while I am taking a step back and wondering what the hell I’ve done with my life. My days and nights are filled with studying and research for my next business move, I have long since left the world of the working man. I know at some point I will need to enter the work force again but also know I will never again be employed. Dreams are worth fighting for, why spend your life making someone else s dreams.
The next year will be spent, playing, exploring, and getting all my ducks in a row. My vision is growing far beyond the scope of my simple life, and as usual I’m always wondering if a single person can make a difference.
“When I was a young man, I wanted to change the world. I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change my nation. When I found I couldn’t change the nation, I began to focus on my town. I couldn’t change the town and as an older man, I tried to change my family. Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family. My family and I could have made an impact on our town. Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world.” ~Author Unknown