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The things we do for love. For the last 4 years I have put myself in one of the most uncomfortable positions possible. I literally worked for the spawn of the devil. I thought long and hard about spelling out the hell I have been living in but decided to just say its over.
Its all my fault, I could have left at anytime or turned them into the authorities but I didn’t. Why am I such a coward?
“Character consists of what you do on the third and fourth tries.”
When I adopted Chloe I made a promise to care for her no matter what. Living on a boat with a dog is difficult but finding employment with a little pooch in tow is nearly impossible. I sucked it up, kept my mouth shut and did what I had to do to keep my dog fed and safe, in the process I wasted 4 precious years of my life and completely lost my dignity.
“A dog reflects the family life. Whoever saw a frisky dog in a gloomy family, or a sad dog in a happy one? Snarling people have snarling dogs, dangerous people have dangerous ones.”
~Arthur Conan Doyle, The Case-book of Sherlock Holmes
My company was corrupt yes but not once have I done anything except be 100% honest in my business dealings. It was a constant fight from day one but I fought it each and every day, doing the best I could for my clients while protecting them by throwing myself under the bus every step of the way.
“The greatest battles of life are fought out daily in the silent chambers of the soul.”
~David O. McKay
Today was the straw that broke the camel’s back. I quietly resigned and walked out the door. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring but its going to be interesting. I have no charts, motor, heat, electricity, lifelines, water tanks… the list goes on and on. I do have 3 months of dog food, 200 bucks and 8 hours worth of stove fuel. I shouldn’t be spending money when I have so little but I purchased Sterling Hayden’s Wanderer in search of any small insights that might set me free. For now I’m taking the day off and will start to work on getting my dignity back.
Not even a dog bites the hand that feeds it. ~ Unknown