Somewhere deep in the recesses of Sookie I have thousands of pretty sailing images locked away for a future project I was supposed to finish months ago. The bilge pump is going off again, I’m not sinking and Sookie doesn’t leak a single drop, it’s condensation. The same condensation keeps everything damp and feeds the mold that has me waking up with sore lungs. Keeping the boat dry is a constant battle. Protoecting my camera gear, computer gear, keeping my clothes dry enough that mold doesn’t start to grow on them, this is a few of the many realities of living aboard.
On the flip side, I’m clean and showered. It’s laundry day and I have piles of warm clean clothes and sheets. Fresh potatoes and onions are steaming in the hobb, hard boiled eggs chilling in cold water and I have a bottle of whiskey given to me by a very generous sailing couple who came knocking in my hatch at the suggestion of a good friend. The #sailing life can be a good one with the right attitude.
I’m always questioning what real freedom is. Most of us have either comefort and safety or true freedom. A very small percentage of us might experience both but even for those fortunate few more often than not it’s very short lived. I push play on my new song list and blast music while I continue in my sketch book trying to create the almost perfect life. I sidetrack to Instagram and enter #thesailinglife and look at really pretty pictures, snapshots in time and am reminded that those images only represent a millisecond of reality and just like my own pictures there is a ton of hard work and hardship between all the payday moments.
Freelancing has given me the freedom to roam, to go anywhere I want for as long as I want as long as I tote my minimalist digital office with me. I have enough money, enough food, enough freedom, enough… Im alone again for now, I send off a letter and sign it with the L word, patience I remind myself, anything worth having is worth fighting for…
Some people never find it, some… only pretend. But me: I just want to live happily ever after, now and then. -jimmy Buffett