Today I did my longest ride since returning from the Oregon coast, a very easy 25 miles, my knee is still janked. I’m seriously considering a bionic knee or getting clipless pedals and continuing on with one leg. I threw a pity party in the spa and now I have to face my upcoming reality, my long distance cycling career may be over. I’m a little bent but have nothing but time on my hands to figure this out.
Living in the damp dank PNW my body always aches, funny how just hours off the plane in the tropics I feel like I’ve been given the body of a 25 year old, maybe I should start listening. My only reason for the new steed is the amount of cactus the Baja divide will offer up to my tiny rubber tires. Flashing back to my seven flats in one miserably soaking wet and wind torn day somewhere in Washington and I know I will need a different monster for Baja. I’m slightly limping around but the real pain is my potential reality of not making this trip.
To be honest I have felt terrible, like I’m two timing Brompty, my all time favorite touring bike but still, Baja looms. I love dessert riding, the wild weather and being so far off the beaten path that nobody can save me but myself. Self reliance has always been one of my better traits, not that I have many. A gallon of water a day, more stretching and more slow riding will fill the rest of my week. The winter weather has broken, spring is here in its full glory and Ive got a massive dose of wander lust.
I have all my ducks in a row but one, maybe a bike, train tour of Southern Europe with short days is in order. I could train from city to city and just be a damn tourist while sneaking in a few banging rides and ignoring the pain till it’s too much and then hop to the next city. The thought of traveling without my bike is an impossibility. It’s desision time which is why I have a cup of noodles and a bottle of whisky, I’m really good at ignoring reality. Either way if I taste defeat it won’t be from my warm perch by the fire overlooking the bay. It will be out there, on my hands and knees facing the point where I can’t turn one more rotation…
“Passion and drive are not the same at all. Passion pulls you toward something you cannot resist. Drive pushes you toward something you feel compelled or obligated to do. If you know nothing about yourself, you can’t tell the difference. Once you gain a modicum of self-knowledge, you can express your passion…..It’s not about jumping through someone else’s hoops. That’s drive.” -Randy Komisar